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HOT METAL BF
03:20
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Hi!
Long-haired talent skilled in music
Sweet eye candy, pretty privilege
Stronger, better, good judgements
My other half, break me, please
You are the prime
Token for family photos
The best of all your friends alike
I will be your type
You said you wanted
A short, hot goth girl GF
Well, here I am
Big thighs, platforms
High skirts, fishnets
Can I be yours?
You say no,
But won't tell me
What's wrong with me
So I can get better
I will wait for you
And change
I want you
Long-haired talent skilled in music
Sweet eye candy, pretty privilege
Stronger, better, good judgements
My other half, break me, please
All I ever wanted
Was the man of my dreams
But he does not like me
So I became the hot metal boyfriend
This self-love
Has never fulfilled me
Like before
Heavenly peace
I am what I crave
Be like me or better
Don't be moody
Maybe it's not meant to be
Become the woman
You wanted
Get a taste
Long-haired talent skilled in music
Sweet eye candy, pretty privilege
Stronger, better, good judgements
Independent icon - now, that is hot
Carry ourselves enough money
To splash and spoil you and I
Power couple, envious goals
Inseparable one whole
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2. |
BLISTERS
04:28
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The walls cry as you indulge
In the unholy burning pleasures
Baptizing demon, cleansing thyself
Of earthly filth, enlightenment
Peel my skin at the fingertips
Overload friction into perfection
There is no sin, guilt does not exist
What you want is not what I want
Why do you care? You are not me
If we are the same, then who is right?
Do not tell me
Do not use me
Do not hurt me
Do not trust me
No, don't touch me
Exceed the limit, going insane
Again and again, filled with dry pills
Thoughts and prayers for my downfall
Physically and mentally y worthless burden
Aching wings, keep going
Numb the pain, stronger than ever
There is no sin, guilt does not exist
What you want is not what I want
Why do you care? You are not me
If we are the same, then who is right?
Do not tell me
Do not use me
Do not hurt me
Do not trust me
No, don't touch me
Shape-shifting force, catwalk posture
Starving beauty, red-stained soles
Cover blisters, take it away
I don't want what I hate; I will die pretty
Persistent fashion, sleepless and bruised
Foul injuries, no healing scars
Gasping for air, collapsing to my knees
Begging for mercy, suffocation
Self-betrayal from the worst enemy
My own body makes me sick, attachment issues
Turn my insides out, regenerate
Let time heal, and hope to stay
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3. |
FAVOURITE
02:23
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Bask in glory of preference
Favoured conversations
Walking library of secrets
Everyone's best friend
Actions from a movie scene
My idea of easy-going
Foolproof model
I want to be like you
Impossible expectations
Unrealistic standards
I can't be close, but I can be like
Reminders of my idols
Far-fetched dreams, delusional means
The future is me, the future is now
Unwanted attention
One-sided relationships
Robbed of time
Waste of effort
This normality
Feels so strange
Have I gone too far
With my wishes?
Go-getter for anything
All-in-one convenience
What do you want from me?
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COMPLEXITY
03:17
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Look who's here, mister I-know-everything
Queen of self-suffiency
Instincts never fail me
Always right guessing your every move
Listen to myself all day, everyday
"Who do you think you are?" ... A star.
If you can't do it, I will do it
If you CAN do it, I will do it better
I am not what I want to be
Stuck with conflicting identity issues
Outcasts exclude me, yet I can't be left alone
I'm going to snap my tendons in half
Consistent victories
Track record of tragedies
Caused by me
Funny
Making myself laugh
Favourite topic: making fun of you
I'm a reliable
Trustworthy superior
Should have said something else
You're an embarrassment
Last of your bloodline, forget your honour
Breaking traditions to become what?
Mentally, physically
Unwell, unstable
It feels like I can't breathe
Hollow, but calm
Left speechless, red and sore
Puffy eyes
It feels like I can't breathe
Hollow, but calm
Left speechless, red and sore
Puffy eyes
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5. |
MORE THAN HATE
03:23
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Mashing your face
Smear your blood as lipstick
Replicate the pain you caused
To see how you like it
Tearful entertainment
Cry, whine, die
Harvesting your organs
To feel fine
Gnawing fingers off
Colouring your arms
Return the fantasy
Of drawing blood in bed
Hypocritical
Spineless narcissist
Rearrange your body
To feel fine
You never listened to me
Eyeing your trophy
Pressured to keep up
With your high libido
You hate my favourite word "no"
Until I give in
You are free to make a mess
But I have to stay clean
I need to be erased
From your tainted mind
Delete everything
Like I don't exist
Reduce
Your expectations to zero
Reuse
Manipulation tactics on you
Recycle old stories
To make you feel insane
Rethink our history
No need to repair
Project your favourite
Ideology onto me
Bigotry is comedy
Behind my back
Are you really proud of me?
Are you lying for my sake?
Why put me on a pedestal
Then throw me under?
Stargazing on the edge
Tempted to nudge
But you'd just die in seconds
Away from my hands
Destroying all you own
Including myself
Close to overdose
To feel fine
Push comes to shove
Say what I want to say
Intentional hurt
Free of remorse
No more precautions
I'd settle for an accident
Admit the truth
To feel fine
I hope that we don't cross paths
You are dead to me
I don't forget or forgive
I would never give you a chance
I don't want to
Be in your life
Anymore, evermore
Take a hint
I don't want to
Be in your life
Anymore, evermore
Take a hit
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6. |
1 AM
02:17
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Falling from dusk, I lie and brace
Rolling ankles, beating ribs
Minus degrees, slow and heavy
Slip into something comfortable for them
Unassumed lurkers in my solitude
Take my heart or take me out
Rowdy and fun is how they play
Regardless of what I say
Dimly lit, closed hours
Missing keys, dead signals
On this path I take,mIt's my fault
But I will make a "next time"
Blinding beacon
Supersonic scream
Hundred per cent
Adrenaline rush
Born to defend
Made to offend
Live to parry
Laugh hysterically
Understand shortcuts
Trained in every clothes
Accessorize weaponry
Strengthen nature
Uppercut the nose
Flick those temples
Left hook, lower back
Swing for the kneecaps
I'll be fine I'll be alright
I became what I was scared of
Others cower, crossing roads
Clutching bags, turning back
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SUMMER
03:34
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Out of my way
Shut up, damn you
I was the outcast
In a room of friends of friends
Deceiving smiles
Misleading laughter
Promised sanctuary
While he dragged me as deadweight
One goes up, one goes down
He was happy, I wasn't
Loud and clear
Corrupted by devilish whispers
Inferno birth
Infernal child
Grounded by fatigue
Denied new normalities
Pressured to conform
Anything to move on
"I like you that way" he said
About my altered state
Only he would know what would
Happen if it was only us
I still remember all the things
That he said and did to me
Always thought about me
But never appreciated me
Something, something, I am sorry
Begging for forgiveness, please
Talk, talk, talk and talk
My desires over your needs
I am not an evil being
But I am because I can't
Please you or your family,
The future is in the past
I looked forward to this demise
Watching him cry
Pathetic quivering lips
So satisfying
Missed what I used to be
With selective memory
There was no change
Just embraced myself
They were right
I enjoy suffering
Of others crumbling
Under my control
I yelled, I screamed
Because it felt good
Mocking his aesthetics
And measly ways
No longer gullible
To his psychological
Horror shows
I took liberty
Undo all you did
Reverse all your advances
All I want is
For you to get
Out of my way
Shut up, damn you
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8. |
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No restraint
Eye for murder
Clench my teeth
And fist in range
Anyone will do
Everyone does it too
Punish all
Just to feel OK
No progress has been made
Indifference killed my hate
Unfair blame
Because I'm different
All I do is disappoint you
It's whatever, "as long as you're happy"
I could have everything
And still be defeated
Disconnect real life
Rotate sickness
Delay those tears
And my heart
Write my last note
Proving I was right,
And they were wrong
Just to feel OK
Innocent patience
Turn me away
From my flaws
Yet, I still feel the same
All I do is disappoint you
It's whatever, "as long as you're happy"
I could be better
And still be defeated
Veer off to create
My own haven
Accept great power
Build my own family
This is all I want
All I've asked for
Even in need
Refuse your deeds
Surrender all you know
I am not what you remember
Prepare for the change
Clutch your bags and pearls
Purposely on my own
Avoid help
Putting myself first
Just to feel OK
For once, I feel justified
More than fine
I can be proud of me
Self-centred confidence
Blood traitor
Others over me
Deserted loyalty
Pitiful emergency
Calling...
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9. |
COLD
02:17
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It's not my fault
How was I supposed to know?
I need validation
Console me
Neither victim nor witness
Just a scapegoat
I swear it's the truth
Believe me
Stop crying, weak
Be quiet, seeker
This is how life works
Take the blame
Stop crying, weak
Be quiet, seeker
This is how life works
Get used to it
Enough about me
Tell me your side
Dare to say I did that
When you were the perpetrator
I will take disappointment
Over false honouring
At least, we'll be honest
Even if it hurts
Skin cold as stone
Unable to regulate
Body temperature
Reptilian heart
Shedding a new face
Purple nails, pale hands
Void of sunlight
Locked in obscurity
It's too late, I'm grown
No need for apologies
Useless life advice
Could have used the respect
It's too late, I'm grown
No need for apologies
Useless life advice
Mutual disrespect
More than just a silent treatment
Coded to be offline
Reserve my energy
For someone worthy
There is nothing wrong with me
This is how I always am
When I'm with you
Because I don't like you
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ID#47 England, UK
The 47th placeholder. Self-taught DIY freak. Doom Metal turned Sludge Metal artist.
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